I went for a walk tonight. I saw an old car, I found a picture somebody had dropped, some people sitting outside by their firepit. The picture reminded me of a summer memory I forgot. A memory never experienced because it was forgotten before it was able to be remembered. I don't know why I'm even talking about this. I felt a connection to the people I guess?? in a weird way. I dunno It made me sad by proxy. I left it there in the hopes they'd find it.
Things have been cool lately. Probably because of the season change. Finally gettin that vitamin D I need. My gizz concert is coming up soon I'm excited for that. My tour got cancelled but we are gonna have time to practice more and hopefully record something somehow. I went on a date last night that went really well, and I communicated effectively for once which is always a win because I am terrible at that. I bought new drumheads for my rack toms, I think more cymbals are next I just need to wait for the next paycheck. I also got moongel. I'm trying to get my set as record ready as I can. I saw this thing about dave grohl isolating the drums by cymbals and drums on a Queens of the Stone Age album, Songs for the Deaf. I have an electric drumset, I could do what he did by swapping out the cymbals on one playthrough and the drums on the other. Maintains the acoustic sound but allows the tracks to be mixed independently, especially with how hard I hit my drums and the fact I don't have quiet cymbals. I don't know if I'll do that but it's something to consider. I reconnected with a friend whom I care about a lot, I got a nice break today because band practice was cancelled. I have started budgeting properly now and have enough money to make it to next paycheck without dipping into my savings. (one single $100 emergency and I'm ruined)
I am finally seeing a plan for myself and my future. I have hope once again that I may figure things out. I'm taking better care of myself, or trying to. I think I'm gonna look into getting my glasses prescription, and maybe going to the dentist althougb I'm not excited to hear what they'll have to say about my teeth. I want to save up some money to take snoopy to the vet and get his ear infection looked at. I worry about him so much, I fear I don't take good care of him, I can hardly take care of myself. I try though. I do what I can, he's difficult to work with, never been trained, terrible anxiety. I am not patient enough to train him most of the time because of how long it takes for him to learn. I try it nonetheless and I try not to be frustrated with him. It's not his fault. I should've trained him when I was younger but I didn't know how. I still don't really know but I'm sorta feelin it out and seeing what works. It's a slow process but when I really try he sometimes gets better at stuff. So maybe there's hope for him too. I have hope for him.
I'm real excited for Gizz, and for my drum stuff to arrive. Really looking forward to how much better the drums will sound with fresh heads and no resonant ends. I met a jazz drummer who was pretty cool and said that it'd probably be a good idea, so fuck it. I only did it for the high toms though, I feel like the low toms sound fine with the resonant ends how they are. Can't wait for the moongel. Much to feel excited about.
The song of the week is Rosarito by Long Beach Dub Allstars (yeah its time for ska songs again!!!)
