I think I had my first good Christmas.
I usually have a bad experience this time of year, but this winter has been pretty alright for me, which is a nice change. Spent the holidays with people I care about, in a city I love. I got some neat gifts, I did some good deeds, generally it was a pretty good experience. New years was similar, the 31st was my last day at work, that night I went and got absolutely obliterated with some friends. Had an alright time there too.
Yesterday my other sister came over. She swapped out some of my computer parts for Christmas and then we went out for dinner. Another pretty good time, although I have conflicted feelings about her, I think our relationship will improve from here. Family has always been a... difficult situation for me. I'm not always sure how I'm supposed to feel about my family members, and this is why I have a therapist.
I had a bad day sensory wise today, which is something I only recently realized had a name. Before I would just wonder why some days I'm uncontrollably irritable and want to sit by myself and not talk to anyone. This is just another reminder that I need to find a new therapist, but I think I'll focus on finding a new job first. I don't wanna have to go back to work for that stupid ham company come Easter time.
2022, I've been calling it my lucky year, since 2 is my lucky number. Some part of me is worried that I'm jinxing myself, setting myself up for failure and stuff, but another part of me is confident in the idea of my luck. (Thats the part of my brain that makes the dumb decisions). My birthday is in 2 months, and for once I'm excited! Christmas was good, new years was good, if valentines is good, then maybe my birthday will be good too! Things seem to be on the upswing. My sister and her boyfriend are taking me to the car museum in the Tacoma Dome, so that'll be sick.
The song of the week is Uh Oh I Called Mum by King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard
See y'all next week.
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