Burnout pt2

     Short post because I feel like garbage. I have been working too much. I am going to be taking some time off. I have Thursday. and most of next week off. My nose is congested for some fucking reason. I'm tired all the time. I need caffeine to function and then I cant sleep at night. Last night I had a really vivid and uncomfortable dream about Washington D.C. getting hit with a nuke. I don't really... know why it got to me, but when I woke up this morning I had this feeling in my head that something disastrous would happen. It really screwed me up. I need to drum more. I work at the ham place on friday. I'm going to drum more. I think my mom's mental health is improving, oh also I saw my cousins, they came into work. A lot of people come into work that I vaguely recognize but they don't clock me. It's weird. Its kinda nice. I like being a mysterious and ambiguous person. I'm worried I'm wasting my life. I sometimes think about being older and it makes me so confused and uncomfortable. I think I am unwell. I still need an autism diagnosis. I still don't know how to get one. I'm saving money to get my GED, thats good. Soon. Things will fall into place for me. I know it. I will persevere! I will overcome. At the very least, I'll wake up tomorrow morning and be okay. I'm cutting down caffeine this week, and also weed. Gotta prep for 4/20. Me 'n the gang are gonna do... something.

Everything is so complicated, I miss when it was simple. I think back to a time there never was, where it was easy. What once felt so difficult, seems simple now. If I told my younger self that in the future I would describe my childhood as simple, kid me would kick me in the shin.

whatever

I'm tired

take your half assed bog post

be mad

I don't care

The song of the week is De Música Ligera by Soda Stereo.